Blog fever
I'm sitting here in my wedding dress and veil and a thought struck me and I had to write it down (BTW, the reason I'm in my wedding dress and veil the day before the wedding is I was trying it on as an ensemble... Its amazing how wedding-y an outfit can look when you add a veil!) and I realised blog fever has struck halls. Now I know this is like a delayed response, but you can't run into a person without them having a blog! I think its great, but it creates a hassle when things go off course, (see my other blog for details). I feel the only way things can't get weird or nasty is if no personal stuff is spoken about, and I like talking about personal stuff so it shits me... Not that there's much personal stuff going on with me any more. The guy I was mad at in my last real post is now longer someone I feel about in that way, which, considering the circumstances, is really for the better! I was stupid (and now highly embarrassed) about what I had written in this and my other two blogs... It wa so melodramatic and angsty of me that I find it shameful! But I also know that if I get myself into a similar situation again, where I have guy confusion and stuff, that I'll be exactly the same! I can't change it.... I don't know if I just like being melodramatic of if its a side-effect of me thinking way too much, like I always do! Maybe a combo!So, that dramas over, and I, unlike others I know, are in the thick of it. If I wanted to create drama for myself (and when I say this I mean in the guy variety... What other kind of drama is there? :-D) I probably could, infact I definitely could... It would start by listening to that little voice in my head goes "but what if..." But I have now chosen not to listen to it any more, because I think its that little voice that sets the melodrama in motion and then dances a little party/victory dance on my pituitary gland when it takes over my life... So I'm not giving in... I'll adopt a cool veneer and ignore the voice... Listen to the more logical one instead!
Ok, should do some reading before sleep!
mel over and out xoxo
posted by Super_Hot_Mel @ 12:02 am
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