long time no write
Its been a while since i last blogged here, coz i usually save this space for real emotional trauma, and i don't actually have a whole lot of that going for me at the moment. I've also taken to writing a real diary, which means that i don't need to write here anymore. The reason i write it in a real diary is coz the people/person that i write about reads this and if they read it then they wuld thing i'm more mental than i really am. Actually, not really am, just more mental than they thought i was.This is because i have the all powerful ablility to talk myself into somehting negative, that is probably just in my head. Like if i don't hear from someone, then they must hate me and i'd done something to upset them. Or if someone is late to meet me then they obviously hate me and are playing a cruel joke on me to punish me. Things like taht. It already happened to me three times in the last week, each varying slightly in their intensity and severity and the effect they have on my mood and reactions. the worst was monday night and was on the horrendous side of bad. Its amazing what ones brain can do with merely so slightly depressing music (oh my god Darren Hayes, could you be more screwed up?) and nothign but spider soliatre for company.
Ahhhh, thats enough. need to stop sitting in front of a screen reading gilmore girls quotes......
mel
xoxo
posted by Super_Hot_Mel @ 2:22 pm
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